I feel crushed, like there is this giant weight on top of me. On one hand I want to do something, try to move this unbearable feeling. While at the same time, I’m afraid that if I change anything in the slightest, I’ll be crushed.
I feel like I’m just waiting for something exciting to happen and change my life. Like until that moment, nothing I do is important so I should spend all my time preparing for when something I do will actually mean something.